I seek something I have yet to see,
How can I seek something I haven’t seen?
How can I yearn for something of which I have no knowledge?
An idea, yes; a principle I have seen I can, so, I must have seen this?
Some part of me, something in me, must have seen this place, this thing,
this fellowship for which I long.
I seek something I have yet to see,
How I long for it to leap out of my heart and into my head, that I might understand it.
To leap into life within me,
filling me from the front of my brain to the depth of my heart.
Yet, it does not, not yet, it stays as a feeling,
a definite, indescribable feeling, that I am called to seek.
I seek something I have yet to see,
My God, You have put a desire in me,
It is becoming stronger, almost conscious and almost tangible.
It becomes clearer, but I have yet to grasp it, yet I know it speaks of You.
Within this thing I long for is something of You, for it is powerful yet loving,
It is glorious and scary, but it is fulfilment.
In this thing I am yet to define, there is a call.
Maybe it’s message is in the searching,
Maybe I’ll know it’s fulfilment before its unburdening.
Maybe it’s the face of my Lord, His character, His presence?
Therefore, I must persevere; I must breakthrough so that God may share this thing.
What can I do? What do I mean ‘I must breakthrough’?
I must seek and want; I must push on, not with demand, but obedience.
With patient desire, longing, pleading for it.
For if this thing is of God, it will be good. It will be honourable,
and it is right that I should seek.
And, as I knock, He will answer, and as I seek, I shall find.
Most important of all, if it is His will, it shall come to pass!
Dear Lord, speed your word to me Lord, please, speed your word to me.
© N Scott 2006
